I used to be thin. Painfully thin. So thin that people tried to feed me, people probably thought my parents were not feeding me, even though I ate everything I could get my hands on. I was always thin. I could eat anything I wanted. Through high school I weight anywhere from 100-110 lbs, which at 5'2" wasn't horribly underweight, but I was very bony lol
After high school, I married my high school sweetheart and we had our first son. I gained some weight with the pregnancy as is to be expected, and I got up to around 160lbs. After I had him, I got down to about 145lbs, and then got the Norplant birth control implants. I only kept them in for 11 months, due to what they were doing to my menstrual cycle, but I have never been 145lbs again.
I had another son 22 months after the first. More weight gain. I was never told I had to eat differently than I ate in high school, so I kept eating, not exercising... lost a child, then had our third son in 2000. Over the years I had lost and gained over and over again, using several different diets... low-fat, low-carb, Slimfast, Weight Watchers, 10 minutes in the morning, etc. You name it, I had tried it.
2 years ago, I did the hCG diet. I finally got back down to 165! I was so excited! We went to San Diego that summer, and I felt pretty on the beach in my little coverup! Then, my hair started falling out. I decided I could not keep up the hCG diet if it was going to end up making me bald!! I would rather be FAT with GOOD HAIR than THIN with NO HAIR!!
So, over the next 2 years I just ballooned up to 217. I decided to lose it again, so I joined a gym and worked out hard for an hour every day, 6 days a week, and I was eating pretty well... but over 2 months I didn't lose 1 pound or 1 inch... so I went to the doctor.
I found out I had insulin resistance, hypothyroidism, low on several vitamins, and edema. I was put on some meds. For 4 months of last year I was sick to my stomach every day... I could hardly function. Nobody could figure out what was wrong with me. After an upper endoscopy, brain MRI, numerous blood tests, etc. still no answers. I was on 14 different medications at one time, many for nausea. Finally, one day, my nausea was gone, like a miracle. Thank God!
Even though I didn't feel like eating during that time, I still lost no weight. I even went on a diet pill prescribed from the doctor, and I lost a little weight at first, but then after a while, it didn't help. I have lost 10 lbs total this year. So, I went from 217 to 207 and I am stuck there.
I have been tested for Celiac disease, which came back negative, however, I have noticed that I feel awful when I eat wheat, so about 2 months ago I decided to go off gluten. I feel much better, but I haven't lost any weight.
So, I have decided to start again... I'm not really sure of my plan yet, because it is so hot here in Missouri and we can't afford yet to join the gym again... but I am going to move every day in some way, and I am going to try really hard to eat better... I have to lose at least one dress size by September 1st, to get into a bridemaid's dress for my best friend's wedding!
So, this will be an account of that journey. Starting at 217(because that was my highest weight) and hopefully making it to 120. I do have some goals and rewards set out for myself... I will post those soon!
Even if nobody is reading this, at least I will have some accountability!
Steph
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